Sunday, May 9, 2010

All I want is freedom from the known

The only thing left between us was tension, on the ride down to the gallery. I could tell my mother had a bone to pick with me, only she couldn't find it.

When we arrived I made my way inside a spiraling Richard Serra sculpture. Once inside, I sat cross-legged, closed my eyes and began to meditate. I had only been sitting for an hour when I felt a small hand tap my shoulder. A child dressed in black with long blonde hair appeared in front of me. She gazed at me with large blue eyes, walked around me in a circle, then in imitating me sat cross legged about a foot in front of me. I began to open my mouth but she beat me to it.



"Zero" she said, in an alluring monotone.
"Zero. Zero."
She sat and stared at me.
"You are Zero".



On the ride home, my mother told me I am a test tube baby.








My daily reminders never to lead myself down the same path my father took.

Monday, May 3, 2010

Recurrent - Running or turning back in a direction opposite to a former course.

I could feel my heart burrowing into the back of my chest, trying to rescue itself from the bones it liked to call a home. It weighed a ton. It wasn't regret, or disgust; Something I've been all too familiar with.

We heard the motor turn over. He kissed my hair, got out and walked behind my car. The rain felt like piss running down my hand as I waved goodbye .

I found it ironic as I tongued my rotten lower right bicuspid, that when we were woken up by an abrasive knock on the door, we found ourselves stuck to each other.




You could get me to do anything in the world if you asked me to. I find it pathetic that I can't just outright tell you. I am a loser.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

"Everybody says you're no good, because you don't act like they think you should"

"I have a feeling I'm falling on rare occasions but most of the time I have my feet on the ground I can't help it if the ground itself is falling." - Lawrence Ferlinghetti


Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Radio Friendly Unit Shifter

Ummmmmmm....
I was just wondering....
Do you like me?
(whisper-guiter stops here)

Use just once and destroy
Invasion of our piracy
Afterbirth of a nation
Starve without your skeleton key

I love you for what I am not
I do not want what I have got

A blanket acne'ed with cigarette burns
Speak at once while taking turns

What is what I need
What is wrong with me
What is what I need


I'm nothing to do with what you think
If you ever think at all
Bi-polar opposites attract
All of a sudden my water broke

I love you for what I am not
I do not want what I have got

A blanket acne'ed with cigarette burns
Second-rate third degree burns

What is what I need
What is wrong with me
What do I think I think


Hate your enemies
Save, save your friends
Find, find your place
Speak, speak the truth

What is what I need
What is wrong with me
What is what I need
What do I think I think


Use just once and destroy
Invasion of our piracy
Afterbirth of a nation
Starve without your skeleton key


What is wrong with me
what is what I need
What do I think I think

What is wrong with me
what is what I need
What do I think I think

Saturday, April 17, 2010

When the last person you can count on is yourself, and you've done away with the only bridge you've never wanted to burn, you truly have nothing left to lose.

There's no point in this life/
See you in the next one, where hopefully you'll get your revenge.